Alright, look, I have started writing this post like three times in the last few weeks, because this keeps happening to me, and it has happened to me my entire life, and it makes me nuts. But just now I'm sitting here in the goddamn coffee shop writing ridiculous fic and enjoying the lovely photos of O'Lough and DDK and Scotty and commentficcing up and down and around the town and trying to figure out where I'm gonna take Burro & Burrito for dinner, looking out at the sunshine. It's a good fucking afternoon, and then some random stranger starts talking to me because that's my lot in life, because no one ever understands that people wearing headphones and staring at a screen probably aren't
dying to hear you wax rhapsodic about lawn chemicals or whatever the fuck. But fine, he starts chatting with me and fine, I take my fucking headphones out and fine
, because I was raised to be polite to people and you can't just ignore someone talking to you, and anyway I just have one of those faces or something and people constantly do this.
And he's talking, he's talking, he's talking, and Jesus fucking Christ shut up shut up shut up I am trying to get shit done here, and then out of nowhere he drops an antisemitic comment that I'm not going to repeat like it's nothing
. And, seriously, I don't know what is in the water
around here lately, if it's just that Mel Gibson and what's-his-face from fucking Dior are like, striking this into people's hearts all of a sudden or what, but this is like the fourth time this month
I've had to hear this crap.
So I say, "Dude, I'm Jewish, please do not say that shit to me," and he blinks at me and says what they all say: "Oh, sorry, you don't look
Jewish."( Cut for me RAGING MY FUCKING FACE OFF )
I'm going to go have dinner with my brothers now, and when I return I will be going back to my excellent afternoon--to wit, writing more, commentficcing more, squeeing more. My sincerest apologies for interrupting your flail, and you may, of course, feel free to ENTIRELY IGNORE THIS. It was just this or get arrested for assault, and I didn't think this bastard was worth going to jail for.
Also, I'm 5'1'' and on the tiny side, so I don't necessarily know how much physical damage I could have done.
Finally, I would hope most sincerely that it goes without saying that the Jewish experience I discuss herein is mine and mine alone. I would never, ever suggest that the way I understand and experience Judaism is the way everyone else does--is the way anyone
else does, come to that. I am a firm believer (er, obviously) in the concept that your identity, on any level, is yours and yours alone to define, and so I would be completely appalled if somehow the takeaway from this was that I felt any other way. I am pretty sure I didn't send that message, because it's so far away from my worldview that I can't imagine I could have, but I recognize that words pounded out mid-fury aren't always the clearest, so I'm stating it explicitly just in case. Okay? Okay.