gyzym: (JGL with guitarrrrr)
gyzym ([personal profile] gyzym) wrote2010-11-03 08:11 pm

OH MY GOD YOU GUYS

Okay, so, um, you guys, this is the thing: my personal life is in the shitter to degrees I cannot even explain, this has been up there in worst weeks of my life, and despite it I am doing okay. I am doing okay because the amount of love and support and just dsfjdkf I have gotten from you for this coffee shop fic is literally KEEPING ME SANE. There are just. There are nine pages of comments, I don't even, and every time someone pipes up to tell me that they enjoyed it my entire life gets so much better.

THANK YOU, YOU GUYS. I CANNOT THANK YOU ENOUGH, I REALLY, REALLY CAN'T.

And I was just, I was thinking about that and then I was listening to this song [livejournal.com profile] angelgazing sent me last night that is literally the musical summary of that story (it's the last one on this mix, in case you were wondering), and I thought, well, you know what, I might as well make a soundtrack. Because, you know, the least I can do is offer you guys some free music in exchange for my sanity :D

So, uh, without further ado or some such thing:

I've Got Nothing To Do Today But Smile: The Soundtrack

the sound of settling - death cab for cutie

i've got a hunger
twisting my stomach into knots
that my tongue has tied off

my brain's repeating
"if you've got an impulse let it out"
but they never make it past my mouth.

this is the sound of settling


people who think they can - the waifs

i want to be
not so far away from where i'd planned to be

good things come to those who wait
i'm going to lift my head and keep my back up straight
and when it matters most and I can't be found
you just climb to the top and you will find me hanging around
with people who think they can


our way to fall - yo la tengo

i remember a summer's day
i remember walking up to you
i remember my face turned red
and i remember staring at my feet
i remember before we met
i remember standing next to you
and i remember pretending i wasn't looking

so we'll try and try
even if it lasts an hour
with all our might
we'll try and make it ours
cause we're on our way
we're on our way to fall in love


parentheses - the blow

Now and then you can bend, it’s okay
to lean over, lean over my way

you fear that you can’t do it all and you’re right

even day takes relief every day

from its work, making light from the night

and when you’re holding me

we make a pair of parentheses

there’s plenty space to encase

whatever weird way my mind goes

i know i'll be safe in these arms


how the day sounds - greg laswell

oh who would have ever known this
could be this easy
i was a long, long way off
then just like that it was over
everything i knew of love
i was a long, long way off

and i think i like how the day sounds
like how the day sounds through this new song


not your year - the weepies

movies, tv screens reflect just what you expected
there's a world of shiny people somewhere else
out there following their bliss
living easy, getting kissed
while you wonder what else you're doing wrong

every day it starts again
you cannot say if you're happy
you keep trying to be
try harder, maybe, maybe
this is not your year


impressions - jarred gorbel

you can't wash this off your skin
leave the wreckage of your sin
feels a lot like a new beginning

you're so young and impulse driven,
you've made all of the wrong decisions
you sacrifice someone else's time

get yourself in these predicaments
come undressed as the equivalent
lesson learned


paper bag - fiona apple

i believed for a moment that my chances
were approaching to be grabbed
but as it came down near, so did a weary tear
i thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag

hunger hurts, and i want him so bad, oh it kills
'cause i know i'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
i got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love


i won't disagree - kate voegele

'cause I've got the feeling
you'll be needing love
and of all the lonely hearts
you're the one I'm thinkin' of

i've been told it's gonna take an iron hand
to break the mold and stand above all of the rest

well lately you make me weaker in the knees
and race through my veins baby every time you're close to me
take me away to places i ain't seen
they say you've got a hold on me'
and i won't disagree


harbor - vienna teng

you've got a journey to make
there's a horizon to chase
so go far beyond where we stand
no matter the distance
i'm holding your hand

sail your sea, meet your shore
all i want is to be your harbor


i feel it all - feist

i love you more
i love you more
i don't know what i knew before
but now i know i wanna win the war

no one likes to take a test
sometimes you know more is less
put your weight against the door
kick drum on the basement floor
stranded in a fog of words
loved him like a winter bird
on my head the water pours
gulf stream through the open door
fly away, fly away to what you want to make

i feel it all, i feel it all


the only living boy in new york - simon & garfunkel

i get the news i need on the weather report
oh, i can gather all the news i need on the weather report
hey, i've got nothing to do today but smile
don-da-darlin' oh don-da-darlin' here I am
the only living boy in new york


photosynthesis - frank turner

oh maturity's a wrapped up package deal so it seems
and ditching teenage fantasy means ditching all your dreams
all your friends and peers and family solemnly tell you you will
have to grow up be an adult yeah be bored and unfulfilled

oh when no ones yet explained to me exactly what's so great
about slaving 50 years away on something that you hate,
about meekly shuffling down the path of mediocrity
well if that's your road then take it but it's not the road for me

I won't sit down
I won't shut up
and most of all I will not grow up






Download it here, everybody.
ext_175749: (brb busy reading fanfic)

Imagine the best hugging gif ever here, okay

[identity profile] butterflythread.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
I love that writing and fandom can totally lift your mood that way, and I am so happy for you that a) you're getting love you deserve and b)it's at a time to help you through crap. <3

AND SOUNDTRACK. You don't even know how much I love music when I write and read. For every fic I write I have a playlist, sometimes even broken down by character and scene, and I really enjoy when other writers share the music they used/think fits with what they did too. SO THIS MAKES ME UNREASONABLY HAPPY.

Re: Imagine the best hugging gif ever here, okay

[identity profile] gyzym.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
EEEEE I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT BB :D

[identity profile] jacquise.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
I have a surprise for you, gyz, babeh.
...I just need to take a picture of it.

[identity profile] gyzym.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 12:58 am (UTC)(link)
That is somehow both the most exciting and the most ominous comment I've ever received. EEEE I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS RN JAC YOU'VE GOT NO IDEAAAAAAAA

IS IT A PUPPY?????? &hearts:

[identity profile] jacquise.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:02 am (UTC)(link)
Nooooo, it isn't a puppy, though those are some of the BEST gifts ever. It's related to your story though, so consider it fanart? I guess? I don't even.

[identity profile] gyzym.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:07 am (UTC)(link)
Dude, I am a loaded gun of squee at this moment. PLEASE BE PREPARED FOR THE GIGANTIC TEXT COMMENT I AM SURE I'M GOING TO LEAVE YOU AFTER I SEE THIS GLORIOUSNESSSSSSS

[identity profile] gyzym.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
OH MY GOD. I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU THAT I LEFT MY COMMENT IN THE WRONG PLACE *DELETES AND PUTS IT HERE WHERE IT BELONGS*

NOW ACTUALLY IN THE RIGHT SPOT I AM TOO IN LOVE TO EVEN DEAL WITH THIS:

[identity profile] gyzym.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
MY LOVE IS SO FAR BEYOND BEING REGISTERED TEXTUALLY THAT I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPLAIN. I AM WIBBLING. WIBBLING. AT MY SCREEN.

MY OWN BARISTAS THINK I'M CRAZY BUT I DON'T CARE BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ♥ ♥ ♥

Re: NOW ACTUALLY IN THE RIGHT SPOT I AM TOO IN LOVE TO EVEN DEAL WITH THIS:

[identity profile] jacquise.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 04:18 am (UTC)(link)
EEEEEEEEE I'M SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I got to work today and was compelled, dare I say INCEPTED to do it.

[identity profile] okaasan59.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 02:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Love that! I'm gonna go to my neighborhood coffee house and spread the love to the baristas there.

[identity profile] usakeh.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so very sorry to hear that RL is crappy, but I'm glad that your fans have kept you feeling okay throughout.

&hearts

[identity profile] gyzym.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:06 am (UTC)(link)
OH MY GOD OH MY GOD THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MY ADORABLE BEAR!!!!

*SQUEES ALL OVER THE EVERYWHERE*

[identity profile] usakeh.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
You're welcome!

[identity profile] foxxcub.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Dude, today fandom reminded me once again how wonderful/awesome it is. Sometimes I truly don't know what I'd do without it. *hugs*♥

[identity profile] gyzym.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:07 am (UTC)(link)
*Hugs you right back*

[identity profile] onthecount.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:23 am (UTC)(link)
*downloads* :D

Coincidentally, I just finished making this for you/that fic and a;dfkglasdg now there is music, omg, ilu and your writing and your arthur/eames and i have no coherent thoughts, no, really. :( <3 KEEP BEING FABULOUS, OK, and by that I mean just keep being you. <3 <3 <3

[identity profile] jacquise.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
THAT IS AMAZING SERIOUSLY

[identity profile] gyzym.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I AM LIKE. I AM IN A STARBUCKS AND THERE IS THIS MIDDLE SCHOOL KID SITTING RIGHT BEHIND ME AND I AM LIKE. I HAVE NEVER HATED A RANDOM CHILD SO MUCH BECAUSE I AM NOT PLANNING ON DRIVING HOME FOR TWENTY MINUTES AND I DON'T WANT TO LIKE....OH FUCK IT I DO NOT CARE WHAT SHE THINGS *OPENS IT ANYWAY*

[identity profile] merely-anger.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:34 am (UTC)(link)
Ohhh, this looks delicious. I'm totally gonna go download it now. I mean, I have to. It has Paper Bag on it. ♥ :)

ETA: And isn't fandom really great sometimes? It can pick you up in such a way that nothing else can when you're down.
Edited 2010-11-04 01:36 (UTC)
ext_104199: (Bleach- Urahara okay heart)

[identity profile] sangre-fria.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
Every comment that you get on your fiction is well and truly deserved. I actually went back to your coffee shop fic the next day, just to make doubly sure that I commented the first time around. You're awesome, and you deserve to have whatever you want from life. ♥

Image

ext_88181: (jgl)

[identity profile] chaoticallyclev.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
yay music!


um, again, someone should ban me from powerpoint. I am like a bizarro thing making fiend. So, this is for you. Because I seem to have forgotten how to draw and this scene made me laugh, so:



[identity profile] norinoricat.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
This mix looks amazing!! Now I have a real mix to go with my future rereads instead of the score to (500) Days of Summer.

and even when rl sucks fandom is always there to pick you back up and cheer you on.

[identity profile] oaktree89.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
Mmm you have good taste :) Hearted for Vienna, Feist, Fiona, Yo La Tengo (band of my HEART)...

[identity profile] loverly.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
I love the title song so much, so taking the fanmix, thank you!

Just so you know, I haven't had a latte for almost two weeks when I read the fic, after that I had to RUN LIKE THE WIND TO GET MY CAFFEINE FIX SO FAST.

[identity profile] waterbaby12us.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you very much ^_^ I've been waiting for some music to go with fanfic-reading time XD

[identity profile] xrainbowcloud.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
You shouldn't be thanking us, we should be thanking you! You provide us with great stories that cheer us up, always, so it's only far that it works both ways. And I'm really sorry to hear that you're not having the best of time, I hope it gets better very soon.

I think I might download this fanmix and listen to it as I re-read the story at the weekend. <3

ETA: The Frank Turner song has me grinning like an idiot! It's so perfect for the story, and it's just great for life in general. THANK YOU.
Edited 2010-11-04 05:35 (UTC)

[identity profile] themostepotente.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 05:48 am (UTC)(link)
I am dying to read the coffee shop fic and have had no time! *cries*

*HUGS*

[identity profile] miznarrator.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 07:51 am (UTC)(link)
Eee thank you! I always have fanmixes for my fictions, and I love hearing other people's! I might have to sit and reread now, listening while I do.

♥ times a millionty. Hope the shitty times end soon.

[identity profile] sirona-gs.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 08:44 am (UTC)(link)
Wonderful! This rounds off the whole experience very nicely. I'm glad we can give you something back (in the shape of outpouring of LOVE) after you've give us so much already! I hate the fact that I can't draw for shit so I can't make you something back for your story!

Also, the mix looks fabulous.

[identity profile] jacquise.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
omg gyz. :(
The soundtrack file HATES me and will not let me download it.

[identity profile] gyzym.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 08:43 pm (UTC)(link)
OMG WTF >:( I WILL UPLOAD IT ELSEWHERE AND GET BACK TO YOU BRB FIXING!

[identity profile] avarice-girl.livejournal.com 2010-11-04 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
as a non-writing person, sometimes it feels like i have nothing to offer to say thanks for the opportunity to read some of the most amazing stories, or see some of the most incredible art. the fact that our comments made you feel that little bit better about the crap you've got going on gives me hope that you awesomely talented artist types don't feel that it's too one-sided all the time. :)

hope everything gets better for you, darling!

[identity profile] celemie.livejournal.com 2010-11-06 04:23 am (UTC)(link)
Loving the soundtrack!
(But Impressions and I Won't Disagree aren't playing for me ):)

And wanted to say, if you haven't read Skybird (http://windswept-fic.livejournal.com/38329.html?view=253625#t253625) yet you really need to RIGHT NOW! Arthur and Eames adopt a thirteen year old Neal of the NYC streets! lkdagjklglagkj Best crossover ever.
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[personal profile] aurora 2010-11-21 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
I really love Frank Turner, Greg Laswell and Kate Voegele tracks, thank you!!